fuck you, why dont youjust talk to ME about it?!

I wish he would just talk to me or even fight with me instead of talking to my friends about it. He always fucking hides. It's so annoying and when I try to talk to him he just puts on a smile and then makes me feel like I hafta go along with it. I don't want him to just set things aside, why can't he just talk to ME?? It's not that hard to type a few meaningful words or dial a couple digits and use your fuckin' brain occasionally! I'm sick of it, I don't know what to think of him anymore. He was the closest guy friend I ever had. Now, I don't know what he is, some type of phony guy who I fell for?No, I didn't fall for him but I like him, somewhat. I don't know what I mean, and I'm really confused and uh...fuck that lil'fucker. But I do want him to figure out what I mean, and on his away message it says, 'Thinking about It' I don't know what to think anymore, I'm too stupid to loose anymore braincells. I was hoping that maybe I could get some people to go sledding today, play some ball down the park, then go skating tonight. Looks like there's only guhna be the skating part since people are visiting their new cousin's, haha, and then another one is fighting with me and Sarina is doin' an essay. O well. Tonightwill be fun, Chelsea and I might even go to the movies this afternoon if my mom has the time to take us cuz I think her mom is working, hmm...should check her schedule out so far. (Chelsea's meanin'. Hahe.) I had tryouts this mornin' and my arms are killing me. No more slapshots, please! LoL, no more keyshots, please! No more pitching, please! I can't do all these things @ once, it's too hard! Nevermind the fact that my grandfather wants me to submit my drawings into one of the major art classes to the MFAbut I don't think I'll do it. I don't wanna be an artist, I wanna be on stage. I can't act, but I wanna sing. And I can't dance, so that may be a problem too. LoL, o well! Whew, I always go onto different subjects.Last night was fun, Chelsea Tibbs Squeek Me... Abs, n Sab uh.. nvm on that. Chelsea and I had some pretty funny dirty laughs! Haha, Tibby completes me, I love that girl I swear to god she is my homy 4 life!! Haha, Squeek and I were discussing how immature phones r. And then I was like well I use mine all the time and she's like u lil fuckers SHUT THEM OFF! RAR! ... Scariness...But it's all good in the neighborhood! (sp>)Yeah...So, Chelsea just called and I'm not this multi-tasked so I gtg before she falls asleep on meon the fone. (The girl doesn't usually wake up till 2 or somethin.' LikeIluvYaBaBcOr