damn, im so sad

"Today was stupid, annoying and it sucked, I hate it...I hate all of it. I hate everyone around me. I really do."-MomHonestly, I've never felt so terrible in my life. The one time I come home and my mom actually hugs ME back, she says this. She was accepted to this BC secretary thing...and I really do wanna see her go there, but she loves to do people's hair. It may sound funny, I know. But whenever she's happy, I am...But now I feel like shit, you will never know how much it hurts! I WANNA HEAL I WANNA FEELWHAT I THOUGHT WAS NEVER REAL!I WANNA HEALI WANNA FEELLIKE IM CLOSE TO SOMETHING REALLOOKIN EVERYWHERE ...shit, she just can't find it. It's so sad. I feel horrible, I have never felt so depressed. Scratch that, maybe I have, when that dipshit of a friend dumped my best friend and ignored us. Maybe that was worse because he said shit that I just today also found out. BUT THIS REALLY TAKES THE CAKE!shit, im goin to angela's then to the fleet center to see the girls kick sum ass..bye

What's on TV? Hm, let's take a look, shall we?!

TUESDAY: AMERICAN IDOL (FOX 8 O'CLOCK) THERE ARE 2 CHOSEN TONIGHT! oH BoY! WEDNESDAY: CELEBRITY SURVIVOR! LAST PERSON IN AUSTRALIA @ 9 O'CLOCK! HELL YEAH, I HOPE IT'S THE GUY WHO GOT STUNG!NO SNOB WINS A MILLION MORE BUCKS, THANK YOU VERY MUCH :)K YA KNOW WHAT...I JUST DON'T WANNA READ THE TV GUIDE ANYMORE. LET'S SEE...oops sorry caps. went to aly t's today! we watched pochahontas and powder! powder is about an albino youth (didnt wanna say kid cuz i thought that would kinda sound mean when i finish the rest of the sentence-or when the rest of the sentence comes haha w.e.) and he has this electro magnetic power/force thing goin' on. and he is in an asylum and then ran out and the sheriff found him and they took him back to this place and analyzed him n stuff. whoah, long sentence... too too complex. i honestly dont feel like writing well today so sorry--even though many people do not read this. so then i left aly's @ around 5:30 and im home to stay, unless i go to the gym with angela and chelsea which i dont think i am cuz it's already 6:30 and i feelin like takin a showa now instead of lata. so, let's see no physics or math today (c, and e) god, do i hate math. not even gonna get into it. urgh, 510. mofo. ok well let's see here now, PEOPLE!! DOWNLOAD HEADSTRONG BY TRAPT!! SO CATCHY AND I LOVE TRAPT NOW! aha, whoah gtg someone wanna help me make a justin icon?? im not very good and i don know how to haha! that might just be the prob bob!

blue blue blue summer... I don't know the words

Ya know what I just saw? It said childrenofwar@helpkids.com and ya know what it was? A porn site! And I so wanna reply back and bitch @ them. I mean childrenofwar? How cruel is that?! They fucking lead you into thinking shit. I know this has happened so many times but this one just hit me like BAM! WTF IS THOSE WORDS DOING IN THERE! This probably doesn't make sense but I really couldn't give a fuck right now. That really ticked me off...I'll probably be talkin' about it all day. Hm, let's see what else? Hmmm...well Chelsea, Angela, and I are going to the gym around 11 or so. Although, I know Chelsea and Angela will not be ready by 11 because 1. They're too lazy and 2. Angela will be talking about ERRR w/ her mom before she leaves. Making her very vedy late. haha, g2 love 'em. Oh, well let's just see here now. Um, I have bruises on both knees, an indent on my wrist and a scratch on my face from falling off the stairmaster @ the gym yesterday. Hopefully, no1 saw that even though they were all basically looking @ me, so nevermind. It was pretty funny....It said push what level you want using the arrow keys but the arrow keys like shot up the level and then I pressed Enter. Stupid me. So the thing was goin' way 2 2 fast and I think it was on 15 or something, and I pushed Stop but it wouldn't fuckin' stop haha! So, I was slowing down and all of a sudden I trip and the thing is still going! Haha, so I fly off the stairmaster and feel so embarassed and then Chelsea comes over and was like "I shut it off for you, you dumbass!"Haha.. That was the highlight of my day!! But while we were there, I went on the stairmaster (for a couple seconds) The treadmill for about 10 mins...and then we went on the bikes for probably a total of 20 mins. I just realized that I ILY MY CALVE MUSCLES...did I really just say ILY MY CALVE MUSCLES...I must have massive assive problems, haha. Not that I didn't know or anything just makin' sure the whole Livejournal world knows. After the gym, we went back to Chelsea's house and watc---HOLD UP!Before this, we went to Blockbuster and rented Knockaround Guys (?) and Blue Crush. My mom came just as she was takin' the wave of her life, I was like NO! JESUS! And then when I get back to the car my mum's like, "You wanna go find out what happens?" And I was like dreadfull mum dreadfull... Did I really just say that 2? Haha Yeah so now back to what I was saying... After the gym and Blockbuster, we went back to Chelsea's house and watched the two movies. The Knockaround Guys was a really short movie, maybe an hour an a half. But it was good, but sad. About a Mafia plan and a bag of maybe half a mill. get's stolen or the guy dropped it for a second and the guys loaded it but then looked inside and they stole it. So yeah...that was sad, I can't really tell you much cuz it will take away the whole meaning, it wasn't a good movie, I thought. But then Blue Crush, I LOVED IT...the whole movie I was thinking of that guy and what movie he was in and finally when I was babysitting last night I was like LEGALLY BLONDE! It was just weirdness, but I wasn't even thinking about it untill I was drinking my water. Haha, watcher BLUE CRUSH...yeah. Last nite, 30 bucks, babysitting. I'll do it again, ya know . Haha, Mary goes to sleep @ like 8:30 and I watch TV for around 3 hours and I'm like hey, nice job I got here. Her mom wanted me to take her upstairs but she wouldn't lemme she was like crying and I felt bad and so I just left her on the couch and put a blankey over her. But then she really started whining and I was like O muh bejebus! O well... she was fine after 5 or 10 mins. of me holding her. I shoulda taken her upstairs earlier to get her pajami's on but she wouldn't lemme so her mom had to do it. I was like "Mary, I justc alled mommy and she wants you to put ur pajami's on :)" fake smile haha... and then she goes "NO, and goes back to sleep." So it was a little frustrating, but at least I got paid....fuckin Chels made 50 bucks in 2 hours, rich people, whew, wouldn't mind babysittin' for them cuz I hafta save up for the Justified and Stripped concert! Whooooooowhoo!!!Aight well we may play baseball or softball in the slow n rain today! May be fun haha! I'll write later on tonight or maybe even if we don't go to the gym depending on Chelsea cuz my mum can't drive me ...Oh, well I mine as well add that I am going. Hmm...to mu mum I mean., O bejebus!

hm, this is funny cuz i didnt order a newsletter or anythin

Hey everyone! Jess here with your brand new, top of the line, Reel Big Fish TheClub weekly newsletter! I hope this new month of March is treating you well!----Reel Big Fish is preparing to embark on another mini-tour around the West Coastarea. Be sure to check the tour dates page at http://www.reel-big-fish.com fordates/locations near you. In other news, the guys are very excited to be playingthe biggest ska event of the millenium, Ska Summit (http://www.skasummit.com) atthe end of this March!Also, be sure to check out the Monkey Man video, and request the song and videoto your local stations. If you haven't seen it yet, you can watch it athttp://www.reel-big-fish.co.uk, so get crackin!----SITE UPDATES:As you can probably tell, we're still having problems updating/changing some ofthe things on the team site. We're working on a supplement to the team page, tobe unveiled this summer, so watch out for that. Until we're able to fixeverything, please keep rockin out and waiting patiently. We apologize to thoseof you who want to trade in your tokens or request RBF videos; we're stillworking hard to get everything fixed!----ARE YOU GOING TO BE AT SKA SUMMIT??!?!If so, drop me an email here at theclubinfo@yahoo.com, so we can arrange to meetup! I want to meet as many of the people who have helped us come so far aspossible! I might even have a few surprises up my sleeve....If you can't make it to Summit, don't fret: there will be plenty of otheropportunities for fun and excitement! A big shout out goes to John Rawling, whoserved as our UK team rep at the recent shows over there. Thanks to those whotracked down our purple-haired friend. We hope you enjoyed the shows! I alsotend to be pretty mobile in attending RBF gigs across the US, so all hope is notlost yet. =)----Our next mission is one I'm looking forward to. As you know, we've beencollecting AIM icons for you to use when chatting online. Make sure you have oneof our icons loaded, because starting Monday, March 10, I'll be randomly im'ingteam members and if you have the icon loaded, you'll get 1000 bonus points! NOTE: Please do not IM JessAmazing hoping to score points. We have a specialteam screenname set up for the contest that will be used. To win points, we mustIM you. If you have discovered our team screenname and want to IM us, that'sgreat and I'd love to chat with you, but you won't earn points unless you areamong the random screennames chosen and have an icon, so please don't hekkle thepoint-givers! =) Please make sure that you are spreading the word about Reel Big Fish, forwardingthe link to http://www.reel-big-fish.com to everyone you know, leaving it inchatrooms and messageboards, forwarding the icons, and telling your friends allabout RBF and their mini-tour and Monkey Man!----Finally, I'd like to make this newsletter more interactive for you. From henceforth, I will include up to five pieces of music-related propaganda from thefans at the end of each newsletter. If you have a fansite, or just know of one that rocks, send it my way(theclubinfo@yahoo.com) and it might appear in this little section. If you're ina band, send me a link to your site or your sounds (or both) and it just mightbe sent to over 5,000 people! This is your chance to get the word out, so let mehear from you! ***THIS WEEK'S PROPAGANDA:***Since obviously no one has sent anything in yet, the following are myselections. =) http://www.rooney-band.com*Rooney, a five-piece rock band from California. They have the most unique soundI've ever heard, and draw influence from a number of bands including Weezer, TheBeatles, and The Cars. http://www.fazoomusic.com*If you're in a band and need cost-effective publicity and promotions, giveRebecca Usherwood at Fazoo a holler! An up and coming music promotion companybased out of Southern California, and quickly gaining momentum. Catch thesegirls at Ska Summit!http://quakercitystringband.com/*This is one group of people you HAVE to see! The Mummers put on an amazingperformance, and I highly recommend them to anyone in the greater Philadelphiaarea. http://www.audioandvisual.com/*A site devoted to all things audio and visual. Lots of awesome great livephotos, run by Kari Cansler. Check it out!http://www.suburbanlegends.com/main.shtml*Duh! Suburban Legends rock! They are also from California, and will also be atSka Summit! Check em out and give em a listen; you won't regret it, I promise! ----Well kids, that's all for now. This is your team leader, over and out. Catch yaright back here next week! Have a great month of March and keep fishin!--Jesstheclubinfo@yahoo.comP.S. I can't believe we're up to more than 5,000 members. You guys areINCREDIBLE!------------------------Reel Big Fish loves you!http://www.reel-big-fish.comIf you no longer wish to be a member of this or any other i-squad then clickthis linkhttp://i-squad.net/cgi-bin/reelbigfish.cgi?unsubscribe%3D1%26userid%3D%26artistname%3DReel%20Big%20Fish